12.17.08

On Love

Posted in Love Blogs at 6:11 pm by khessa

I just so love to read Kahlil Gibran’s writing over and over again. I’m sharing below what he thinks about love….that love isn’t all about your own pleasure and happiness but more so of the one you love…that love, no matter what you do (even if you combine your power and that of the world’s), will not come to you if it doesn’t find you worthy….that love when it comes to you will make everything just fall into place and direct your course even without you doing anything to affect it…and most importantly, that love will always make you a better person and never the monster which most of us become in desperation. I believe, this is the best description I ever read of love and for years, this has been the gauge in which I measure how and what love should be to me. I hope you enjoy reading!

On Love

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God’s sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life’s heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love’s peace and love’s pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love’s threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, “God is in my heart,” but rather, “I am in the heart of God.”
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love’s ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

12.08.08

Finding Papa

Posted in For Mama at 9:09 pm by khessa

There’s always something new that I learn each time I do things connected to mom. It proves how mom continually guides me even if she’s no longer physically with us.

Last night, I busied myself over transferring mom and pa’s old photos into one huge album. While doing so, I got to read the lovenotes they wrote to each other at the back of the photos. One picture struck a soft spot in my heart. It was mom’s note for papa which was a line she quoted from a familiar song….

“…of all the things I ever done, finding you will

prove to be the most important one.”

Such short a line summed up mom’s life story and that was why in my eulogy, I was able to say that even if she left so soon, she had a well-lived life. I realized now that mom endured all of life’s difficulties because Papa was with her and Papa was the reason of her existence. This great love trickled to us — their children, and I couldn’t help but be awed at how mom had been so brilliant, so wise, and so right about life.

Papa was her first bf. Papa was the missing ingredient until she met him. Finding Papa started everything for her. Finding Papa was the reason behind why she greatly loved us. Finding Papa was all she had to experience to find her life’s direction. That was why mom could foresake the rest for us. That was why mom did not crave for more. I remembered offering to make her dissertation in graduate school for her but she did not pursue the idea. I never heard her complain about self-fulfillment because she was already fulfilled. That was why, despite the problems she had at work, she still possessed that easy aura, the peace in her heart and mind, which nobody could disturb. She was one person who will never pry on other peoples’ lives because she was too engrossed tending her own — that was Papa and us (her children).

Now, I hope of finding soon as well my life’s direction, finding soon the one who will stop me from demanding for more from life, the one who will make me complete. Thanks mom for your wisdom.

Pa and Ma at the Xavier U Chapel