05.29.08
flown by the wind
it’s been eons since my last blog. i really envy others’ steadfast devotion to activities they love doing, like keeping a blog and other whatnots. i checked one blog i regularly read in the past and i was amazed at her diligence as i read too many of her blogs which i missed.
consistency, for me, is something so fleeting. i’m on top of things at one time and totally lost at another. i’m often like a fallen leaf, easily blown to wherever the wind goes…mindless of where i’m being led to. whenever my busy work sked sets in, i’d be too engrossed with the task, totally neglecting other things like family and friends, that would have kept my balance…my sanity. when problems get in the way, i go to sleep mode — detaching myself from that which bothers me AND WORST, NOT DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
how i wish i can be as perfecting as i am with my work in other things. how i wish i can attain that balance i used to possess and not dwindle along my way. how i wish i can love with wild abandon and be mindless about where, when, how, and if it’s gonna end. how i wish i wasn’t human in the first place so i won’t falter, won’t fall, won’t stumble, won’t get flown by the wind.
UNDER STRESS
